will it be da second heart broken???

if i wrote note 2 God...
i say..i say..

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is overdue
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

i just accept him 2 be part of my life...
hope we can go trough without effect our stdy..
n neva be da second heart broken 4 me.. cos.. it will take along of time 4 me 2 cure it.. amin..

Sad Love Story Letting Her Go

"I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! " Jeanne's eyes were wide and filled with tears. She was afraid of what he would say to her.

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Jeanne was a nerdy girl with thick glasses. She was a junior in her middle school. She was in love with the hottest guy in the entire school.

And now, she told him that she loved him.

"Haha! Shut up. Nobody would like you! Who do you think I am?"

Jeanne had feared he would say something like that. She was devastated. She started running. She didn't want to face him ever again. All these thoughts and feelings ran throughout her head. Until, she bumped into something.

"Hey, whats up?"

She had bumped into James.

"WHAT?! I'll GO TELL HIM! WHERE DOES HE GET THAT NERVE! SOMETIMES, I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M HIS BEST FRIEND! THAT'S IT! i'M GOING TO GO BEAT HIM UP!"

"NO! James! Don't do it! It's not his fault. I was the foolish one to think we can ever date."

"But Jeanne!"

" No, it's OK! I should go."

" JEANNE... James grabbed her by the wrist as she was getting up. Don't go."

Jeanne stared into his eyes and felt so warm and fuzzy; a feeling she didn't feel for a long time. But, she looked away. She saw in such a long time, it felt awkward to feel it again. And then she gently took her wrist out of James' grasp and slowly walked away from him with tears in her eyes.

"Dammit, James! You really did it this time! Jeanne just left you! And why are you trying to hit on her?"

James walked back home with his hands stuffed in his pocket. Thoughts of Jeanne ran throughout his head. He didn't want Jeanne to be hurt by a jackass. He wanted to show her that he loved her. He wanted to show her he cared. But Jeanne just seemed to ignore him. And then, something ran into him. He crashed on the ground and saw Jeanne was on top of him. She seemed to not know whom she crashed into. James smiled.

"Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm very, very sorry. I should have been more careful.. I'm sorry. Can I repay you somehow?"

"Jeanne", James said, lifting her chin and brushing her bangs. Jeanne looked through his soft eyes and almost melted.

"James..." said Jeanne. Suddenly, she started crying. James was shocked.

" J-Jeanne? What's wrong?"

"I' m s-s-such a f-fool! H-How c-c-can I th-think t-that G-Gyung H-Hoon c-can love me?"

"Jeanne.. I would not call that foolish.. I actually admire you going up to him and confessing.

However, crying about him is indeed foolish. Jeanne, Don't cry about that jerk. Here, let's go to my house. We're right in front of it!" Jeanne nodded.

James led her to the bathroom.

"Take off your glasses. We need to wipe those tears off." He said with a smile.

Jeanne took them off without a word. James turned on the water and wet a washcloth. Then, he gently wiped her tears off her face.

" James.. Do you love me?" James was startled by this comment.

" Why do you ask me that?"

" Because.. it seems like it. Do you?"

" Haha! Jeanne, you are my friend."

" Oh.. OK. I think I'm not so teary now. Thanks, James."

" No Problem. Do you want something to drink?"

" Um... OK." She followed James out the door.

He handed her a glass of orange juice and they sat down outside on a bench.

" Are you going to be all right?"

" Yeah.. Thanks. But I don't think I'll be able to face him again."

" When he calls you something bad, just yell my name. OK?"

" OK." she said with a small laugh.

" But what are you going to do when I call you?"

" I'm going to beat him up!"

" What if everyone starts hating you?"

" It doesn't matter. As long as the one girl I love is happy."

" Ooh, James! You like someone?"

" Yeah.. Guess. I'll never tell you until you get the right answer."

" Hmm... is it Amy? She's pretty! What about Lauren? She's nice and quiet. Or is it Becca? She's generous. Or maybe it's Courtney! She's not all that nice though..."

After a few tries, she gave up.

"Who is it? I'm dying of curiosity!"

" Let's see.. she has glasses.. she's in love with Eric, she's sitting right next to me! Jeanne let out a small gasp."

" M-Me?" James nodded. Jeanne almost passed out.

" James! I have declared you crazy." James started laughing.

" Why won't you believe me? I like you.. I want you to be my girlfriend."

" But you're the second hottest guy in school! What if everyone criticizes you for bad taste in girls?"

" I don't care¦ I told you. As long as the one girl I love is happy." he said, smiling.

" No, really, James. No games this time. All serious.. all right?"

" Yeah.. I know."

" Oh my god..." Jeanne said, covering her mouth with her hand.

"Jeanne, I just want to be the right guy for you." he said while putting his arm around her shoulder. She leaned against him and for the first time, she felt accepted by someone special.

"But, James! Why did you say I was just a friend before?"

"Umm! I didn't feel like it was time yet." Jeanne nodded. She knew how hard it was to say, "I love you." She knew how nervous you would feel. And she knew how hard it was to feel the reject.

"I understand, James. I'm just glad you told me. I'll think about it."

"Jeanne, do you still like Eric?"

"Yes!"

"What has he got, that I don't?"

"I just don't know! I mean! you two look the same! you guys wear things all similarly! but! I like Eric better."

"All right! I'll make him like you. He knows he's not going to win in a fight." Jeanne wrapped him in her arms.

"James! I'm all right. You don't have to do all that." And then he wrapped her in his arms.

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"Eric, can I see you for a moment?"

"What up, dude?"

"It's about Jeanne!"

"Oh no! don't tell me about that ugly! I just barf when I hear her name!"

"SHUT UP! DUDE, YOU JUST HAVE TO GIVE HER A CHANCE! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

"Hey! I have other girls who want me. The least thing I need now is another girl who is ugly and slow liking me."

"She's not ugly and slow! She's kind and beautiful in the inside when you get to know her!"

"Wait! do you!?"

"Yes! I do!"

"Haha! Then why don't you date her?"

"Because! she's in love with a jackass!"

"STILL? Haha! Man, she's hilarious! After I rejected her like that?"

"Hey! please! it would mean a lot to me! just say that you at least like her as a friend and apologize for what happened last time. Man, she came running all the way to my house and started crying! She was just! out of control, man! Just tell her that! please?"

"All right!"

"You're the best!"

"Hey, Jeanne! I'm sorry for what happened last time. I was sort of tired and grouchy. I wasn't in a good mood. I never wanted to say it that way. I like you as a friend. And I want to keep that relationship. All right?" Eric let out a hand for a shake.

Jeanne nodded. She let out her hand and they had a friendship shake, which made James smile.

"See? Eric likes you! He just wants to keep the relationship just as friends! All cool with you?"

"Yes.." she said softly. James took her hand and walked away with her.

"You all right, now?"

"Yeah!" she nodded. "But he only wants us to be friends! because I'm a nerd!"

"Jeanne! Why don't you ever think about me? You know he's a jerk! Why do you mope around for that! So what, if he doesn't like you! Everyone is different, Jeanne. To my eyes, you are a beauty. You can't always think about him! There are other guys out there for you! Not just Eric and me! I really don't want to see you like this."

"James! Do you really love me?"

"I don't think I need to answer that!" They stared at each other for a long time.

"James!" She tried to push him away and he staggered a little.

"Jeanne! answer this for me! do you love me?"

"James, I never intended to be your girlfriend. I just want to be your friend."

"Oh, I see! you're treating me like how Eric treated you.

You don't want to be my girlfriend because I'm way different than you. You don't want to be my girlfriend because I'm better looking than you and you're afraid that people will jeer you because of that. 

Well, you know what? I don't care about any of that!" And with that, he grabbed her and locked her lips into his. After a while, he moved away.

"Oh, you really do love me!" She hugged him.

"But, Jeanne! do you still have feelings for him?"

"Yes! I always have, and always will."

"Do you want to be pretty? Like those girls over there?" James pointed to a group of girls. 

They all had big hoop earrings and what Jeanne noticed was that they did not have any thick glasses like her. Jeanne nodded. She was pretty ashamed about it.

"It's all right, Jeanne. All girls want to be good looking. Even they were ugly once. Everyone is."

"Really?"

"Sure! I used to act like a girl once. I always thought about my appearance, my clothes, and my hair ; just like a girl."

"Haha! That's funny!"

"It's good to see you laugh. Now, Jeanne. I'll help you become pretty'. Then will you be happy?"

"I don't know. I've never been attractive in my life.." she said innocently.

"Well, it's time you are!"

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"OK! we'll start off with your hair. It's nice and curly. I don't think it's right to put it up in a hairdo or anything. Something needs to go with it. And I have just the perfect thing."

"What is it?"

"Jeanne! we need to pierce your ears."

"WHAT?!"

"AAAAAAAHHH! OUCH!"

"Well, that wasn't so bad! right?"

"Yeah right," Jeanne said, rubbing her ears. "James, it's even painful to touch my ears!"

"Then just leave them alone before you get an infection!"

"All right! Geez!"

"Now, we need to focus on your clothes. You can't always have a blouse with a tight sweater squeezed over it, you know. It looks like our school has a dress code. You should have a tight shirt with a miniskirt. That would look good on you."

"OK! now that we have all the clothes and jewelry, all we need to fix are your glasses. We need contacts for your eyes."
"How are we going to do that?"

"I know someone who can get us contacts. I knew my eye doctor for a long time. He can help us with it."

"So you want to give her contacts for these glasses?"

"Yeah. Can you help us?" "Well! the lens are really thick! You must be studying really hard, student," he
looked at Jeanne.

She smiled and nodded.
"So! will you take them?"

"Yeah, I guess. I really like the design. It can be a display. And whoever wants it, can get it. All right, let's get you some contacts."

"That was pretty easy, right, Jeanne?"

"But it's pretty weird not pushing up some glasses every 10 seconds."

"Haha. But your new blue eyes look marvelous."

"Wait a minuet! You got blue contacts? BLUE?!"

"Yeah. And the extra pair is just regular hazel... the same color as your eyes."

"I want the hazel ones. I don't want to be a Caucasian."

"No. Don't you want to be matching with Eric? Eric has blue contacts, too, you know!"

"Fine!" Jeanne pouted. But James knew inside she was happy. He knew he was going to have to let go of her.

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On Monday, James brought Jeanne to school. Everyone gathered around them and agreed that James and the new beautiful girl was a good couple. James put his arm around Jeanne and took her to Eric.

"What up, man? Who's the chick?" Eric asked.

"You'll never know."

"So tell me!"

"You want to tell him, girl?" James asked Jeanne.

"Hi! I'm Jeanne." James and Jeanne smiled when they heard him gasp.

"The! the nerdy! nerdy girl?"

"The same, Eric! the same."

"Can I talk to you, James?" Eric took James away from Jeanne. 

"Dude, what the hell is happening here? That's not Jeanne, right?"

"It is Jeanne! How can you live like that? How can you live with one spontaneous idea stuck in your head? Can't you ever think about Jeanne being beautiful and attractive?"

"Well! no."

"See? I knew this was a bad idea. 

But she loves you! Can't you believe that? And I love her! so I'm letting her go to the one jerk she loves.

Peace, man," and with that, James walked away. 

"Good luck, Jeanne." He stuffed his hands into his pants pockets.

He tried to stop the tears from streaming down his face.

Jeanne! if you love him that much! I'll let you go. I hope that jackass won't hurt you.

"So! You're Jeanne! The one I rejected?"

"Umm! Yeah."

"Well! I've thought about it, but I think I want you to be my girlfriend."

"Your girlfriend?"

"Yeah." Jeanne couldn't believe her ears. Thank you, James. "So! do you accept?"

"Of course I do! It's always been my dream!"

"Gosh! you have pretty weird dreams! Hey, you look cold. Here." Eric took off his sweater and wrapped it over Jeanne. Jeanne was so happy she was crying. Eric wiped her tears and comforted her.

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After school, Jeanne called James to thank him.

"Hello?"
" James! Thank you so much! It went so well between Eric and me!"

"That's! that's great, Jeanne."

" I owe it all to you. Let's go out for lunch or something sometime. I'll pay." Jeanne sounded so happy.

"Jeanne, I don't think that'll be possible."

" Why not?"

"I'm leaving! to Korea."

" What about your parents? Why are you going? How are you going? I just don't believe this!"

"My parents were dead a long time ago, Jeanne. I have enough money to get on a plane to Korea."

" But! what about me? I thought you loved me!"

"Yes, I do. But you're in love with someone else and I don't want to burden you. I want you to be happy with the one you love and not be pressured by me. Tell Eric that I congratulate him and tell him good-bye please. Bye, Jeanne."

Click!

Jeanne couldn't believe it. She was able to date because of James. She was able to get attractive because of James. She was always comforted because of James! And he was leaving her out by herself in the big, hateful, hideous world. She felt suddenly so scared. She dialed James's number again, but he disconnected the phone. She finally knew who was important to her now.

She quickly dressed into the clothes James had bought for her and ran outside. She was running for dear life to James's house. When she got there, he was right there, in front of her.

Jeanne was so happy she cried out, "JAMES!" He turned to face her. 

"James, how can you leave me like this?" James looked at her with his soft eyes.

"I'm sorry, Jeanne. I have to leave. My cab's here. Bye, Jeanne." 

James gave her a peck on the cheek and disappeared into the taxi. She watched the taxi disappear into the curve and watched her James gone! forever. She started crying and crying as if her life was over. But it was! she was now alone in the world, with no one to support her.

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-15 years later-

James came back to America as a successful lawyer. He came back to America in search for the girl he had loved 15 years ago. 

Everyone in Korea had questioned him. And now that he was back, he was able to search as much as he wanted. But, little did he know there was a problem with that.

"Eric?" James had called Eric. They were in touch the whole time James was in Korea.

" Hey! What's up?"

"I came back to America, dude!"

" Oh! Umm! OK!"

"I want to ask about Jeanne. Is she all right?"

" You see, James. There's something about that you should know."

"I'm getting a bad feeling about this!"

" Well, I guess you can say she's happy and well."

"What do you mean?"

" She's with God, man. She's gone."

"Haha. Nice joke. I'm not kidding. Tell me where she is."

"DUDE! I'M TELLING YOU! AFTER YOU TOLD HER YOU WERE LEAVING HER, SHE STARTED GETTING DEPRESSED AND GETTING STRESSED! IT WAS HORRIBLE, MAN! WHY THE F*CK DID YOU LEAVE? SHE WOULD STILL BE ALIVE! BECAUSE OF YOU, SHE HAD TO SUICIDE! WHAT THE F*CK IS WRONG WITH YOU, YOU DUMASS JERK! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED HER! I DON'T THINK THAT'S WHAT GUYS WHO FALL IN LOVE DO TO THEIR CRUSH! SH*T! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. REMEMBER WHEN YOU CALLED ME A JACKASS?

You'd better think again.- Click! The phone fell from James's hand.

He dropped to his knees in disbelief. He just couldn't believe it. He felt like everything was against him. He felt so angry with himself. He felt like ripping himself up. He wanted to follow Jeanne up to heaven.

For days and days, James didn't eat a morsel of food. He started getting so much stress.

-20 days later-

James was buried right next to Jeanne's grave. His tombstone read:
R.I.P.James Park
1980-2005

THE ONE MAN WHO LET GO OF A WOMAN AND LOST HER

CITO SODEH PART 2

“En. Faris, are u ok??” tnya airin dgn cemas.

Namun masih juga tiada balasan dr Faris. Mahu x mau dier terpaksa mmberi petolongan CPR pd faris kerna tiada sesiapa y mau melakukannyer.

Setelah keadaan Faris agak baik sedikit, dier d anta k hospital utk rawtn y selanjutnye. Airin x turt serta dlm mnghantar Faris ke hospital kerna tetiba dia mndapt berita y pnting dr maknya y menyuruhnya untk segera pulang.

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Betapa  gembiranya Airin kerana die d terima bekerja d Johannas & co. d New Orlans. Namun tarikh Airin mula bekrja d sana pd 21 March. Die masih ader 2 bulan lg seblm smpi pd tarikh kramat tu. Airin sempat melakukan sujud syukur kpd Allah karna doanya termakbul juga.

“Papa harap airin dpt menimba pngalmn y bnyk d sana, nnti blh la pulak ambil alih firma papa nnti ek?”seloroh  Ayah Airin yg juga telh mmpunyai firma sndiri.

“baik la papa, papa jangan r isau airin ke sana pn ingn timba pngalamn supaya nnti bleh d apply an d sini.”kata airin.

“airin je harapan Ayah untk ambik alih Firma ayah tu. Nk arap an kakak n abg ko uh, dua2 jd dokter. Nsib bek ader Airin n aiman y sudi ambil kerjaya nie.” Tmbh ayahnya dlm nada agk sedih.

“dah2 la bang, jom kite mkn. Lagipun mak msk lauk special utk Airin iaitu nasi tomato Alabona(nasi tomato tp dh d ubah sedikit oleh mak Airin)” mak Airin tetiba dtg menyampuk.

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Setelah kejadian hari itu, Faris mulai suka pd Airin. Dia terasa trhutang budi pd Airin kerna sudi mnyelamatan dier.

Faris juga x lg melayan Airin sprt sblm nie. Airin mnyedari perubahan Faris, dan dier brsyukur kpd Alllah. Faris juga mulai rapat dengan Airin. Selalu keluar makan dgn Airin n melayan airin sperti girlfrenz nye. Cinta antara mereka juga kian beputik namun masing malu untk menyatakannya telebih dahulu.

Hari beganti hari mnggu berganti minggu, kini hanya tinggal seminggu lg airin akn berangkat ke New Orlens. Hatinya mnjd sedih apabila mmekirkannyer. Airin sedih utk mninggal an keluarganya  n juga Faris stlh ape y telah mereka lalui bersama. Die masih belum mmpunyai kesemptn utk mmberitau Faris ttntg hal nie & juga perasaan dier terhadap Faris. Airin akn cuba bg tau at Faris esok ketika majlis ulng taun syarikat Faris.

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Da next day…. D tmpat majlis belangsung, Hotel Lionasino.

“wow! U look beautiful Airin juz like princess” praise Faris 2 Airin

Dgn suara pelahan Airin mmbisik sesuatu ketelinga Faris “ I wanna tell u something , let go 2 some place dad more suitable 4 us 2 talk.”

“ ok I also wanna tell u something  that gonna make u surprise 2 hear that” faris sbnrnya mrncang utk mnyatakan perasan sbnrnya trhadp Airin.

Suddenly , “ di minta Cik Airin sila kehadpn utk beri septh dua kata sblm die brangkat prgi k New Orlens mnggu dpn” kata Dato Fauzi yg mngejut an semua tetamu termasuk Faris n Airin.

“ Sila beri tepukan” smbung dato’ Fauzi lg.

Airin pergi ke atas pentas dgn perasaan bedebar2.

“ Assalamualaikum 4 Dato’ Fauzi n semua. Seperti ape y d perkatakan Dato’ td adelah sesuatu y mngejut an? Mmng betul sy akn berngkat pergi k New Orleans utk bkrja d sana.Sebenarnya  prmohonan sy d terima utk bekrja d Johannas & co. tp bukan sebagi kerani atau Assistant management tp as a lawyer. Sy bekerja di sini pn hnya ingn menimba pngalmn dlm mntdbir syrkt, walaupn sy tau ia terpesong jauh dr aper y sy belajar selama nie d university Los Angeles iaitu BA international Law n d University cambrige iaitu MA international law. Sy harap jika adew silap salah sy ade terbuat kpd tuan2 n puan harap dpt memaafkannyer dan mendoakan kejayaannya di sana ,wasalam” Airin mngabis an ucapannya secara tetiba apabila die mlht Faris berlari keluar.

Airin prg mngejr Faris utk mnjelaskan semuanya. Nasib baik dier sempt mnrik tgn Faris.

“ Faris, please here my explanation first!” kata airin dlm sura y agk tggi.

“What explanation?? I tough u r my frenz but… aargh!! Sdh la.” Balas Faris.

Airin cuba utk Faris bebincng, tapi d tolak nyer hingga terjatuh. Airin menangis disitu bukn kerna kskitan tp kerana dia tau dia tlh mnyakiti hati Faris n tidak smpt mnyatakan perasaannya pd Faris.

Mlam itu berlalu dgn kesedihan y x dapt d lupakan oleh Airin dan Faris.

Faris begitu sedih kerana ia x snggup kehilangan Airin dan mrh kerna Airin merahsian hal ini pdnya lbh2 ag psl pemergian ke New Orleans n education backgroundnya. Faris malu kerna die prnh mmperkecilkan airin dulu kerna bgnya Airin sprit gadis y x bepeljrn sngt walhalnya airin lebih bijak drnya.

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Kini tiba utk hari Airin berangkat. Dier tau Faris tidk akn trut serta dlm mnghantarnya pergi. Sebelum dier brtolak ke KLIA dier sempat mngahantr email kpd Faris.

Faris mau saja mnghntar Airin ke KLIA tp kerna sifat egoisnya die bkeras juga x pergi bia pn hati ini meronta2 utk pergi.

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Sblm ke laluan menuju ke kpl terbang dier sempt menoleh ke blkang kalau2 Faris dtg utk mngucpan slmt tinggal kpdnya dan berharap Faris akn mmbaca email y die sendkan td.. tapi hnya tinggal harpn, wajh faris tidak juga mncul

“mungkin dia x mmpunyai perasaan yg sama ak rasakn kpd nya. Biar la yg pntng bebann yg ak tggung selama ini sdh terluah” monolog Airin ketika menuju ke flight.

 D dlam flight,  Hati nya terasa gelish sprt something akn belaku tp dier x iraukn nyer mngkin hnya mainan perasaan saja.

Malaysia Airlines Boeing  7708 berlepas pd pkl 1245 pagi pd waktu Malaysia.

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Malam itu Faris x dpt tidur walaupn jam da mnnjukan jam 11. Dier juga  x tau knapa. Kplanya asyik memikrkan Airin.

Utk menghilangkan boring nyer itu die mmbuka tv satu persatu channel d tekannya dan tiba2 tr bnhnti d channel 103 @tv3 n terpaku seketika apabila ader berita tergempar y mngejutan penduduk  Malaysia kerna kpl terbang MAS Boeing 7708 telah terhempas dan rmi y meninggal dunia. Apa yg mngejutkan Faris apabila ada tercatat nama Airin Diana bt Abdul Hakim dl senarai nama penumpang y meninggal dunia. Air mata Faris x dpt dbndung lg, air mtanya mngalir dgn laju kerna org y d cintainya tlh prg mnghadp illahi tanpa sempat dier mmberi tau persaan nya yg sebenr n memohon kemaafan d atas kekasaran nyer.

Mnakala di rumah Abdul Hakim iatu rumh Airin , ibubapa Airin hampir saja pengsan apabila mndgr berita itu. Anak yg begitu mereka bngga n y pling mnja telh kembali kerahmatullah. Sedangkan  baru  pagi tadi dier mendakap ank kesyangan mereka, mmberi ciuman kasih sayg kpd Airin, tidak mereka sngka itulh kali terakhir mereka meliht muka ank mereka n melakukan semua itu. Namun mereka sedar ini semua ketentuan Illahi, dan mereka sebgi hambaNya haruslh mnerima ketentuanNya dgn seikhlas y mngkin.

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2 minggu  telah berlalu. Dn 2 mnggu juga tempoh utk Faris recover from his sadness. Selama tempoh itu juga dia x prg kerja. Namun setelah semuanya kmbali normal, Faris kembali bekrja. Apabila  dia smpi ke office nye perkra pertama y d lakukan iaitu check his email . ini kerana ade email dr pembekal syarktnya, dan sudah dua minggu juga la emailnya x dibuka.

Selepas melihat satu2 email, tiba2 jntngnya sprt terhenti sketika stlh mlht satu email y brtarikh 21/03/08 dr Airin Diana or love_misery@hotmail.com. Dia mngerakkn mousenya dn mnekan left klik  mouse  y mnandakn utk mmbukakan nya.

Faris mmbaca Email y di beri oleh Airin y d sendkan pd hari Airin brangtkt  New Orleans  .

  

Assalamualaikum Faris…..

Mungkin u will be surprise , b’cos  sy sempat lg menghantar email pd awk pd hari keberangkatan sy.

Before I go I hope u can hear my explanation about all that happen.  First , I relly sorry what I hav done 2 u. sebenarnya sy x berniat lngsung nk bwat awk cam tu. Psl education background yg sy rahsiakan pd awk sebenrnya bersebab. Sy sebnrnya x suka org y bek dgn sy  itu dsbbkan education dan org2 y biasa education msti merasa rendh dri apabila brhadpn dgn  sy, n that not my stail.

4 news that I’m leaving 2 work at New Orleans b cos when I with u everything what I gonna tell u disappear  . Why ?? jus 1 reason n that reason is I LOVE YOU. Yes I love u mohd faris b Dato’  fauzi. Pd mlm 2 sebenrnya sy nk bg tau my feeling tp bnda lain y terjd.

So Faris I hope u giv ne one more chance. Please…..

If u also hav da same feeling please  come 2 KLIA airport this afternoon before I go. Please…..

Seblm tgn ini brhnti menaip , ader puisi cinta utk u y mnggunkap makna cinta sy setelah jatuh cnta pd mu,

Biarpun lidah sudah menghuraikan dengan jelas.

 Rasanya tanpa lidah, cinta ini lebih jelas lagi,

Sementara pena tergesa-gesa menuliskannya.

Kata-kata akan pecah berkeping-keping ketika mmbaca bab cinta ini. Dalam menghuraikan cinta ini, akal terbaring tidak berdaya.

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From Someone dad love u very much,

Airin Diana.

Sepert dunia telah kiamat dan dinding batu mnghempapnya setelah mmbaca email itu.

“Why I’m so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I also LOVE U, AIRIN DIANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”Teriak Faris sekuat hati.

Namun tidak berguna lagi kerna Airin telah pergi buat selama-lamanya…

Ends..

Him?????????????

he r relly da guy dad i'm admire..

when da first time i saw him..

i feel like my heart were free from all da problems...

i try 2 find everything about him..

he juz like me....

neva interest about other person prob.

quite person but wen with people dad 2 close with him?? so much thing he wanna talk...

his face maybe show he like a stubborn person but not..

he hav such a beautiful heart..

in religion?? of corse he hav high knowledge about islam..

i relly respect to him...

but i jus only admire 2 him cos i know that im not type da person he want..

citer sodeh 1

at Geolofies Company, Dato' fauzi room..

"tq dato' sy harap dato' akan rahsia an psl education background sy sblm nie..." ucap Airin diana atau lbh d knli sbgi Airin.

balas dato' fauzi" x de ape r airin.. lagipun ayah arin pun peguam pribadi pakcik Tp p.cik pelik r nape airin x nk kijer d pjabt peguam ayh awk lg pn awk nie bekelulusan master international law dr oversea?

"actually i dont want to depend 2 my father...beside, i now is waiting 4 da offer latter from Jahannas co. a lawyer company at New Orlens to be approve" kata airin..

"baik la airin buleh bekerja skarang sbgi assistant management with RM2500 salary ok??" ask dato' fauzi..

"ok Dato' tq so much" said airin

After a month Airin wok at that company.. she become ok n hav many frenz until nak Dato' fauzi
, Faris mngantian posisi dato' Fauzi kerana kesihatn Dato' Fauzi y smkin mngurang. Y?? cos sikap faris yg suke buli Airin dgn kerja y bnyk.
Faris mnngaggap airin adelh pkrjanya y maybe hanyer mmpunyai diploma pntadbiran je n airinx straf dgn dier..

"Airin sila ke pejabat sy skjap.Ade hal pntng"kata Faris dlm nada serius.

"Assalamualaikum encik"Airin mmberi salam dalm nada yg lembut.

"salam, ha! duduk.. ko nie asal ek Airin?? bwat kije pn x btul?? sume salah.. i want da correction in tomorrow understand?? tengking fauzi lam nada tinggi.

" baik tuan" airin mnjawb dgn nada sdkit takut.

"dah ko leh pegi skrng " Faris terasa puas slps kena an Airin.

One day... at umah Dato' Fauzi event besa telh d anjur an oleh Dato' Fauzi untk pekerja d companynye.
semua d jemput termsk r Airin. ia d buat untk mnghargai jasa stuf2nyer. namun bg faris dier ade dier punyer agendanyer sndiri iaitu memalu an airin. kanapa Faris begi2 mmbnci airin karna faris mnganggap bdk law profile sperti Airin x patut bekerja d company y d kenali d seluruh Malaysia.

Setelah merncng dgn teratur with his frenz, he start it. die ingin mnjatuh an maruah airin depan semua org ke dlm kolam kerna pd pngan nyer pasti airin x boleh berenang.

Faris berpura-pura baik dgn Airin. namun Airin merasa curiga dgn sikap Faris y tetiba mnjd baik. ingat er pans smpi er ptng tp ujan d tgnhri, kerna bkn airin y g terkena tp dier sndiri y terkena kerna kelalaian nyer sndiri. sume tetamu y hadir tertawa an Faris. tiba2 ketika die ingn berebg ketepi kaki dier tetiba kjang. semua org trkejut memndg n tiada siapapn y mnlng nyer.

Dalam keadaan y panik, tetiba ader seorg perempuan pergi mnyelamt an  Faris. permpuan uh x laen x bkn ialh airin.
be continue..

 

Story of regret..huhu

There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear. He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him, but none came.

Every year at Christmas, his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up. He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him.

He did not wish to mislead her in any way. So he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his steady whenever she came back.

That went on for several years and each year, the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest.

So whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him, she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy.

The girl took all those rather well, often trying to casually tease him about his different girlfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the girl often wept in secret whenever she saw him with another girl, but she was too proud to admit it. Still, every Christmas, she returned, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance.

But each time, she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed.

Finally she decided that she could not play that game any longer.

Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all those years, he was still the only man that she had ever loved.

Although the guy knew of her feelings for him, he was still taken back and have never expected her to react that way.

He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them.

Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again, he remembered why he rejected her in the first place-she was not the one he wanted.

So he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly. Since then, three years have passed and the girl never return anymore.

They never even wrote to each other. The guy went on with his life..... still searching for the one but somehow deep inside him, he missed the girl.

On the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone. "Hey, how come all alone this year? Where are all your girlfriends? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas?", asked one of his friend.

He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her, still he just surged on.

Then, he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his steady. He wanted so much to ignore her ..... not that he was impolite, but because at that moment, he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore.

It was almost like he was being judged by them. The girl saw him and shouted across the floor for him. Unable to avoid her, he went up to acknowledge her.

"Hi......how are you? Enjoying the party?" the girl asked.

"Sure.....yeah!", he replied.

She was slightly tipsy..... must be from the whiskey on her hand. She continued,
"Why...? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?" Then he answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore......"

Before he can continue, he was interrupted, "Oh yes! Must have found a girlfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?" The man looked up, as if he has struck gold, his face beamed and looked directly at the drunken girl. He replied, "Yes......you are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years."

With that, the man darted across the floor and out the door, leaving the lady in much bewilderment. He finally realized that he has already found his dream girl, and she was.....the Vancouver girl all along! The drunken lady has said something that awoken him.

All along he has found his girl. That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back. It was not any specific girl he was seeking! It was perfection that he wanted, and yes.....perfection!!

Relationship is something both parties should work on. Realizing that he had let away someone so important in his life, he decided to call her immediately.

His whole mind was flooded with fear. He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore..... For once, he felt the fear of losing someone.

As it was Christmas eve, the line was quite hard to get through, especially an overseas call. He tried again and again, never giving up.

Finally, he got through......precisely at 1200 midnight. He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears.

It seemed that she never got over him! Even after so long, she was still waiting for him, never giving up.

He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives. He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happy time was short-lived.

Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver, he received a call from her father. She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. She passed away after 6 hours in a coma.

The guy was devastated, as it was a complete loss.

Why did fate played such cruel games with him? He cursed the heaven for taking her away from him, denying even one last look at her! How cruel he cursed! How he damned the Gods...!! How he hated himself....for taking so long to realize his mistake!! That was in 1996.

The moral of this story is :
Treasure what you have...
Time is too slow for those who wait;
Too swift for those who fear;
Too long for those who grief;
Too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love...
Time is Eternity.

For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.